Written Sunday, September 20th
Come Follow Me study this week covered when Christ comes to the America's after his death. Elder Jeffery R Holland said to the scripture 3 Nephi 11:10, "That appearance and declaration constituted the focal point, the supreme moment, in the entire history of the Book of Mormon. It was the manifestation and the decree that had informed and inspired every Nephite prophet. ... Everyone had talked of him, sung of him, dreamed of him, and prayed for his appearance - but here he actually was. The day of days! The God that turns every dark night into morning light had arrived."
This quote pierced my heart, just as Christ's voice pierced the hearts of the Nephite people at the time of his coming. The question "What has been your pivotal point in life?" repeated in my head for days. As I pondered this question, I realized the answer is easy - my pivotal point in my life was the moment I knew that Christ was center in my life!
I had just finished my sophomore year of college and it was time to go home for the summer. My parents had moved to Southern California the summer before. I didn't know anyone, nor the area. I really didn't have any desire to return home that summer. I just wanted to stay at school and work. I wanted to stay where I was comfortable and had established friends, but my dad had a strong impression I needed to come home and so I did. I was grumpy and not happy about the decision, but I wanted to be an obedient child :). My friends from Alabama surprised me for my bday and flew me back "home" (what I considered my home). While there I got really sick. I spent majority of the week throwing up. By the time I got back to my parents home, my throat was killing me and my neck was swollen. The next day was Sunday, and my parents were really excited for me to go to the singles ward to get to know people. I felt horrible but I went anyways. That next week I went to the doctor and found out I had mono. I was out of commission for the next month.
You wouldn't think that would be too bad since I didn't know anyone, but it ended up being one of the loneliest points in my life. I was sick, feeling horrible about myself (I couldn't exercise, which for me was my sense of self worth), couldn't really leave my house, had no friends, etc. After the month I decided I couldn't take it any longer. I got down on my knees and said the most sincere prayer I had ever prayed. I talked to Heavenly Father for the first time about all the emotions I was feeling. I told him how I was struggling to feel self worth, to feel good about myself, when I couldn't do anything. I asked to feel His love and to understand how to love in return. As I said this prayer I felt arms wrap around me and just hold me. No one else was in the room with me, I'm pretty sure no one else was even in my house that day. And in that moment I knew God knew me, he loved me, and he would support and sustain me through anything I go through.
I have gone back to this moment many times in my life. This moment brings me so much strength! This is a moment that keeps me going when life gets too hard to handle. This was my pivotal moment in life. It's the moment that all the lessons my parents had taught me, prepared me for. This was the moment that would shape the rest of my testimony of Jesus Christ!
Ponder on this question - What has been your pivotal point in life?. Grab a journal and write it out! Share it with someone. That burning of the spirit will burn again inside of you and you will feel like you are back in the moment. This is one of those moments that I will never be able to deny!
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