The Bountiful Gal - Standing For Truth

 My mind hasn't been stop thinking about motherhood since my last post.  I've thought a lot about how to move forward and be there for my children.  I've tried to come up with some game plans of what to do or how to recognize if I feel or see myself start pulling back again. In that process, I've also had the thought "forgive yourself" and "show kindness to yourself" repeat over and over in my head.  I had the feeling, you are doing better then you give yourself credit.   Which isn't that true?!  Aren't we are normally doing better then what we give ourselves credit for?  I know I am.  I guess that's the downfall of perfectionism.  Sometimes we just don't ever see ourselves as good enough. During meet season, life is crazy!  I'm running from meeting to meeting during the week to make sure everything is in order for being gone for the meets Thursday - Saturday's.  All my study time, pondering time, and self meditation is out th...

Two years ago, God began opening my mind to a concept that I was completely shut off to.  It was a concept of facing my fears (the story of "Be the Buffalo" from a prior post).   Gymnastics forces you to face fear.  If you want to move up levels and be competitive you don't have a choice but to face the fear and do the skills that are being asked of you.  After I quit gymnastics years ago, this ability seemed to slowly disappear from my life.  I guess I didn't see how important facing fear in my personal life was.   It all started with becoming a mother!  Oh I was excited to have children.  I always loved them and bonded with them easily.  I thought of myself as a baby whisper and thought motherhood would be a breeze.  I had all these dreams of the things we would do together and what type of mother I would be for them.    Then the first child came and he didn't sleep or eat, just screamed all the time (he had bad aci...