I love Sunday time with the family! Sunday's are my days to crash and today was no different. I was exhausted from the prior week and had a major headache. All I can do when I feel like this is watch TV. To try and make Sunday's a little different from the rest of the week, I don't watch my normal shows. I normally pick a church movie, a christian movie, or a Hallmark movie to watch. After watching the new Hallmark from yesterday and the new Chosen episode, I needed something else. As the family all gathered around we decided to watch the movie Breakthrough. It came out a few years back, but for some reason we hadn't watched it yet. If you haven't seen it, watch it! It's a good one.
One thing the mom continued to repeat to her son throughout the movie is that he is loved and he has a purpose. I can't stop thinking about how powerful that message is! Isn't that the message we are all wanting to hear? Isn't that what gives us the hope to keep going day to day, especially when things don't go right? Isn't that the message of the Gospel of Jesus Christ?!
After the movie I immediately turned to each one of my children and reminded them how important they are. I went through each one of their birth stories! For us, each of our children our miracles! Every pregnancy was a hard one for me except for my oldest.
1st pregnancy - His pregnancy wasn't bad, but his delivery was a whole different story. Miracles happened within the first 24 hours of his birth that kept him from having to have a blood transfusion.
2nd pregnancy - My progesterone dropped extremely low at 6 weeks and the doctor was shocked I didn't miscarry. I was able to get onto medicine immediately to keep her.
3rd pregnancy - Lost him due to a partial placenta tear that formed a blood clot at 9 weeks. By 18 weeks he couldn't get enough nutrients to survive.
4th pregnancy - Began miscarrying at 9 weeks. The doctors didn't expect me to keep the baby through the weekend. Sent me home with the bad news. By Monday, found out I was having twins and they both had survived. Then at 35 weeks began to have a uterine rupture and went in for emergency c-section. Both girls spent time in the NICU but came home after 2 weeks.
5th pregnancy - Began miscarrying at 6 weeks and was put onto full bedrest till 18 weeks. At 27 weeks had a partial uterine rupture (the 3 am priesthood blessing was the only thing that saved Hope and myself). Stayed on full bedrest till 35 weeks when I delivered her. When the doctor opened me up she was shocked to find no uterine lining and said it was a miracle we were able to deliver her the way we did. Hope only spent 2 weeks in the NICU as well.
Each one of my children our miracles! They were placed here on earth to teach me and others that God has a purpose for each one of us.
God needs ALL of us and each one of us matters specifically and uniquely to HIM!
If you are ever questioning if you matter, ask him! He is waiting to show you how much you mean to him.
I will never forget as a young 19 year old girl, getting on my knees in my bedroom asking God if He loved me and if I had a purpose. I still vividly remember the immediate response. I felt His arms wrap around me and I knew I mattered deeply to Him. I knew that I was everything to Him!
Kinnley asked me tonight, "How will I know what my purpose is?" I responded with - It's easy! Follow the spirit! We won't be told exactly our purpose, but the spirit will guide us in the right direction to fulfill our purpose. We don't need to stress out or worry as long as we are listening to the guidance of the spirit.
Do you ever get those moments of deja vu? I do all the time. And they are my favorite moments!! For me that is God's little tender mercy letting me know I'm on the right path in life and I'm where He wants me to be.
You may question - How can you have a purpose when you may live with some form of affliction? Emily Belle Freeman answered that in her Inklings Institute lesson called "What is the reason for your excitment?" In John 9, the disciples were asking Christ who's sin caused the blind man to be blind. She went on to teach us that sometimes maybe the condition, affliction or trial is there for others to be able to see God and not because of sin or punishment.
Once again, this would mean you have a purpose and an amazing purpose at that!!
In the movie when John was healed, people began to asked him why would God heal him and not others. I immediately thought of what I learned in John 9. God used him to help others see God - the fire fighter, the doctor, his mother and father, his community.
WHAT IS YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?
I challenge you to seek seek the answer to that question for yourself! Ask God! Ponder with God! Seek your God given talents that you've been given. Look at your trials and afflictions that you have - Can you or someone else find God because of this trial or affliction?
As you do this, I promise you will see how GREAT your purpose on this earth is! You will know how much God loves you and you will be able to bring miracles in your life.
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