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What do I need to do to Hear Him?

 Recently I've found myself struggling to find the answers that I am seeking.  I've called my husband every morning in turmoil, so confused on how to proceed.  One minute I feel peace about an answer and then the next minute I feel completely opposite.  I've been struggling to trust the answers I feel I am receiving.

Have you ever had times in your life like this?  What do you do during these times?  I unfortunately have a bad habit - I run away.

I left yesterday for a gymnastics training camp with Abree and decided I would just run away from seeking my answers.  I thought if I stopped worrying about it, I could stop living in the high anxiety state I've been in for the last month.  Let me say, I don't suggest running away from problems.  That isn't normally the solution.  But in my case, it was just enough to help me change my perspective on the situation. 

While scrolling through instagram this morning I listened to Elder Christofferson's post on "How I Hear Him".  This was the answer I've been needing!!  He said, "You can't tell God how and when He responds to our prayers.  You can't dictate to Him.  You have to say, 'I'm always open, I'm always ready, I'm always willing to hear.'"

I finally found peace!!  I have only been doing half my part and then demanding God to give me the answers I was wanting.  I wasn't being open to hearing him.  I was only giving Him a few minutes everyday during my prayers to give me the answers.  

After listening to that message from Elder Christofferson, I realized that the times in my life when answers seemed to come easier were the times in my life I was dedicating more time towards my spiritual growth.  We all receive answers differently and they all come in different ways depending on what is going on in our lives.  But the one constant for me in receiving answers from the Lord, is journalling.  And lately, I haven't given any time to it!  

I have found through journalling - whether it's during scripture study, a devotional talk, while at church, just writing my tender mercies from the day, or blogging - that is how the Lord speaks to me the most.  That is the time my heart can truly respond with "I am always open, I'm always ready, I'm always willing to hear".  That is my part of being ready.  That is my way to Hear the Lord.

If knowing this, why do I try so often to demand the Lord to speak to me without me doing my part?

I honestly can't say!!  I guess the best answer is because I am mortal and my brain begins to focus on the things of the world.  And the world teaches us we don't have to do our part and we can still receive and gain whatever we want.  The world has taught us to be loud and demanding.  It has told us the louder and bigger the tantrum, the faster we'll receive what we want.  

But this doesn't work with God.  God is all patient and perfect.  He will continue to wait till we stop yelling and throwing our tantrum.  He doesn't get impatient or angry with us.  He doesn't get anxious as the tantrum gets louder.  He kindly withholds so we can learn even more than what we are asking for.  What a beautiful concept!!  

I'm so grateful for my AHA moment this morning to help me turn my prayers around.  To help me focus more on what I need to do and stop getting mad that I'm not getting my answers right away.

God is beyond GOOD!! 


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